Earlier this year I found myself saying to God, “just tell me what to and I’ll do it.” I was overwhelmed with restless. I would sit in front of the tabernacle or in my car alone, and wait for a task. I was motivated to keep moving. I had a problem; I needed a solution. And I thought God had it.
I had pride in my ability to problem solve, thinking that God would simply give me a task to complete. Every day, my frustration would grow from the lack of a straight forward answers that so many of us reach for in prayer. And in my busy head I heard two words… Be still. It was then that I realized how tired I was. Why had wanting to do God’s will exhaust me so much? Not too long afterward I came across a significant passage.
As they continued their journey he entered a village where a woman whose name was Martha welcomed him. She had a sister named Mary (who) sat beside the Lord at his feet listening to him speak. Martha, burdened with much serving, came to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me by myself to do the serving? Tell her to help me.” The Lord said to her in reply, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and worried about many things. There is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part and it will not be taken from her.” (Lk 10:38-42)
In the busyness of our lives it’s easy to forget to be present in our time with the Lord. Especially while trying to progress in our career or other aspect of our life.
So, I started to reduce noise from my life. The most significant change was cutting out music in the car. My anxiousness died down over time and my trust in the Lord increased. God did not want me to busy myself with tasks or search for a solution. He wanted me to know that he is the solution. There are times when It’s necessary to move when God moves you. However, there are also times God is asking you to rest with him and be still.